Unpublished Work © 2011 Cristina Carlino
five days after this past weekend’s horrific shootings in tuscon, i am still trying to wrap my head around how this moment in time came to pass and what it may mean for the bereaved families and our country for years to come. i know i am not alone. and then suddenly i get it – no matter how many thoughts i have or facts i read or opinions i hear, i will never be able to wrap my head around this. my head simply isn’t big enough for the job. only my heart is. my heart may not make sense of the senseless, but it brings peace, creativity and new possibilities beyond what my mind can understand to today’s reality. every day. if i can be still and choose to listen.
so i am choosing with my heart today and all year. here in my 49th year on this beautiful planet in the year 20ll are a few more of my reasons why i invite you to join me in following your heart’s choices:
1. my heart will never close its door on me
although i have shut the door on it in the past more times than i could ever count. my heart is still wide open for the asking after my very best thoughts have only been able to wear me down.
2. the heart is its own brain bank
i spent several years feeling insecure about my intelligence because i only got a high school diploma. when i first founded and began building what became two very successful companies (including philosophy), i was especially aware of this. but my heart revealed itself as my most brilliant professor guiding me to every next lesson i needed. including meeting many wonderful college educated people who knew what i could not know and helped grow these dream businesses with me.
3. i’m choosing with my heart because when i choose with my head i know:
i may be making a decision based on my fear. what will my parents think? what if i get sick? what if it doesn’t work out the way i want to?
logic won’t choose intuition if i’m writing a pros and cons list of a situation to make my decision, the answer is not on the paper. the answer is in my heart and my gut although in my head, I may feel very happy and relieved for a while. i think i am in control. i think i am right.
4. i’m choosing to choose with my heart because:
when i do, it’s not that i am right. it’s that “it’s just right.” it feels right.
i’m certain i’m not in control. something greater than my thoughts is leading the way. i feel happy. my heart feels a little bit bigger. .
5. i’m choosing with my heart because i have discovered it makes for the greatest adventure and the scariest ride.
people may call you crazy or a visionary. i’ve been called both many times over. but very few days of my life have i called myself not curious.
6. i’m choosing with my heart because it can make decisions big and small
it has no judgment on what makes a right question. any question will do just fine. from which shoes i should wear with this outfit to how to best answer my daughter’s serious question to what project may i best serve next.
7. i’m choosing with my heart because to do so i must get very still.
our invaluable brains are accumulating information and making decisions at faster and faster speeds. i can hear mine at times racing nonstop. but to choose with my heart i must listen to my still, small voice. i must get still. not just for a second. but again and again. and that is oh so good for me.
8. i am choosing with my heart because it’s a most wonderful practice:
the solutions from our heads are complex. the ones from our heart are simple. it should be simple but it’s not easy. it is a skill that can be practiced but never fully mastered. the outcomes of these choices are not up to me. choosing what feels right for me in the moment is.
and finally, i’m choosing to choose more from my heart because it is only in my heart where i have the power to truly forgive. the power to pray for myself and for us all. the heart to begin anew and the power to consciously believe in miracles.
and i most certainly do.
peace and blessings to us all,